Recognizing exhaustion

When I was still living in Oakland I had a therapist. We talked about a lot of things. A big focus was the stress coming from my work life. It was taking over other parts of my life.

My therapist and I discovered that I put too much of myself into my job/career/workplace. It never deserved what I gave it. And at a certain point I didn’t owe it anything.

It took so much out of me … emotionally, mentally, physiologically …

In January 2014 I hit exhaustion (adrenal fatigue). My body was telling me everything was too much and I needed to take care of myself. My yoga teacher training was ramping up, work stress was increasing, getting up at 5 a.m. regularly was taking its toll, long commute, transitioning at work after layoffs …

Currently I teach five cycle classes and nine public yoga classes, two office yoga classes and some private sessions sprinkled in.

I was warned in my yoga teacher training and by friends who are yoga teachers to be careful to not over do it with teaching and to make sure to take care of myself as a teacher.

I am someone who tends to commit … Continue reading

Caffeine and adrenaline

I am a regular coffee drinker. At work I usually have one cup in the morning. The days I work from home and weekends I usually have two cups.

A couple of weeks ago I was really tired at work and upped my coffee intake to two cups.

By Wednesday of that week I had a raging headache, which continued for the next three days.

That Saturday morning I skipped the indoor cycling class I planned on taking because a throbbing head while riding just doesn’t work for me.

Pretty much as soon as I had my first cup of coffee my headache was gone.

It was suggested to me recently that there is a  relationship between coffee (caffeine) and our adrenals. From what I understand about exhaustion and adrenal fatigue this makes sense to me. So I did some research.

According to Livestrong, caffeine may trigger the release of adrenaline (a hormone), giving you a quick burst of energy and physical strength followed by a crash marked by fatigue and irritability, in some cases.

Not all doctors agree on how caffeine affects the body’s release of adrenaline or whether it affects it at all.

We all know about adrenaline, right? … Continue reading

Being kind to me

I recently wrote a post about being a chaotic hot mess.

Don’t worry, I’m OK. I’m just exhausted.

I know I haven’t posted lately. Sorry about that. I just couldn’t muster the energy for a blog post this past week.

Nothing super terrible is happening in my life. It’s just a lot of stuff. And I feel overwhelmed by it all.

Work is stressful. Waking up at 5 a.m. on the days I go into the office are wearing on me as is my commute. (It’s been almost three years.) Work is crazy busy, different after transitions and stressful. I love my yoga teacher training, but that adds an element of stress. Things are gearing up with my Observing and Assisting portion of the teacher training.

And that’s just work and school. We all have things going on in our personal lives as well. Losing a longtime family friend and professor. Worrying about your grandpa. 

When all of that is going on the little things can really weigh on me as well. I am sure (I really hope) I am not the only one who can have something minor happen and it brings you to tears.

Times like this … Continue reading

A hot mess

Do you ever feel like your life is a hot mess? Disorganized? Out of routine?

Lately that’s how I feel. At home, at work, all aspects of my life.

I strive on routine. And my life has been anything but.

I am trying to embrace the disorganized, the fly by the day goings on, the unexpected, the disheveledness (is that a word?), the tiredness and exhaustion, the unplanned, the spontaneous (whether good or bad) …

I recently wrote about how I am really trying to listen to myself and what I need.

I am working on being kind to me in anyway I need it. And to not feel bad about whatever I choose.

This morning I had a dilemma as it was pouring outside. Should I stay in bed all warm and cozy and sleep away the morning? Or should I get up and head to yoga (which is just a short walk) to the studio in my neighborhood?

I knew I would have some guilt if I didn’t go to class. And I wasn’t sure if I would actually be able to go back to sleep. I decided to brave the rain (in my rain coat, Continue reading

Giving my adrenal fatigue some ‘dessert’

I believe I am suffering from adrenal fatigue.

AdrenalFatigue.org says: Adrenal fatigue is a collection of signs and symptoms, known as a syndrome, that results when the adrenal glands function below the necessary level. … You may look and act relatively normal with adrenal fatigue and may not have any obvious signs of physical illness, yet you live with a general sense of unwellness, tiredness or “gray” feelings.

We hear about celebrities going into rehab for exhaustion. Maybe that is a cover for substance abuse and maybe it is really for exhaustion.

At one point today I felt the tiredness and exhaustion overwhelm me.

The best solution I have found for adrenal fatigue is Restorative Yoga. I enjoy going to a full hour and a half class or when my yoga instructors, especially Vickie, adds a restorative yoga pose or two at the end of class.

I recently attended Vickie’s Restorative Yoga and Adrenal Fatigue workshop. It was an amazing discovery of feelings and emotions and a great way to “recharge.” And I am looking forward to the next workshop in December.

At my most intense point of exhaustion today I couldn’t fathom going to Hatha Yoga tonight. … Continue reading

I kinda suck

I haven’t worked out since last Wednesday.

And I have a ton of excuses. Well, I did take a yoga class Wednesday morning anticipating my flu shot that late morning. The nurse told me I shouldn’t work out or party until the weekend.

My arm was still sore Thursday so no kickboxing. Friday Curt and I headed to Tucson. I did take workout clothes with me and I never used them. I was supposed to workout while at the Arizona Inn. I had even checked ahead of time if they had a fitness center, which they did.

And I also ate like crap over the weekend. Fried mac and cheese anyone. Had that at the airport yesterday. It was sooooo yummy.

I didn’t go to yoga this morning because I was exhausted from coming home late last night. And after work tonight, forget it.

My week is going to be all thrown off, between a meeting tomorrow when I should be at yoga, to needing to run errands and get stuff done in the evenings at home. To possible jury duty on Wednesday. To my brother and his girlfriend coming into town Friday. To losing a legal team member … Continue reading