Starting the conversation …

I’ve been struggling to get my thoughts together. And make sense of my words. I feel hopeless, sad, angry, my heart hurts …

Last week I was in my regular Wednesday morning yoga class where I get to be a student.

As class started my teacher mentioned the recent ugly, violent events taking place in our world. She talked about how many of us feel at a loss of what we can do.

It was the first time I had cried over the the night club shootings at an Orlando night club, two black men who were shot by police, one in Minnesota and the other in Louisiana, and the sniper Dallas police shootings. (It’s scary how many more ugly, violent things have happened since last Wednesday.)

Class was physically challenging. But in the challenging poses we were encouraged to look and find comfort. The practice was not about getting into the pose but about being in the pose.

With all the ugliness lately, which includes hate speech, I feel like I am losing hope.

THE CONVERSATION

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Each day is a gift …

FryeWe need to remember how precious each day is and live life to the fullest.

I recently lost a student in cycle class. It was traumatic and scary.

The very first cycle class I taught in the Portland-area I was a little nervous to teach as I was still new at teaching cycle, I was taking over a class where the students were used to their regular teacher (who went on maternity leave) and later I found out the group had been cycling together for years.

But he introduced himself to me and made me feel welcome.

He was a kind man and had a big heart.

His loss is a big one.

I’m so grateful I had the opportunity to know him and have him as a part of my life.

In this tragedy I have gotten to know the family of my student, I have gotten closer with many of my cycle students and staff at the gym and I am reminded about what is really important in life.

Tell those you love that you love them. Tell those that … Continue reading

Being kind to me

I recently wrote a post about being a chaotic hot mess.

Don’t worry, I’m OK. I’m just exhausted.

I know I haven’t posted lately. Sorry about that. I just couldn’t muster the energy for a blog post this past week.

Nothing super terrible is happening in my life. It’s just a lot of stuff. And I feel overwhelmed by it all.

Work is stressful. Waking up at 5 a.m. on the days I go into the office are wearing on me as is my commute. (It’s been almost three years.) Work is crazy busy, different after transitions and stressful. I love my yoga teacher training, but that adds an element of stress. Things are gearing up with my Observing and Assisting portion of the teacher training.

And that’s just work and school. We all have things going on in our personal lives as well. Losing a longtime family friend and professor. Worrying about your grandpa. 

When all of that is going on the little things can really weigh on me as well. I am sure (I really hope) I am not the only one who can have something minor happen and it brings you to tears.

Times like this … Continue reading