Being kind to me

I recently wrote a post about being a chaotic hot mess.

Don’t worry, I’m OK. I’m just exhausted.

I know I haven’t posted lately. Sorry about that. I just couldn’t muster the energy for a blog post this past week.

Nothing super terrible is happening in my life. It’s just a lot of stuff. And I feel overwhelmed by it all.

Work is stressful. Waking up at 5 a.m. on the days I go into the office are wearing on me as is my commute. (It’s been almost three years.) Work is crazy busy, different after transitions and stressful. I love my yoga teacher training, but that adds an element of stress. Things are gearing up with my Observing and Assisting portion of the teacher training.

And that’s just work and school. We all have things going on in our personal lives as well. Losing a longtime family friend and professor. Worrying about your grandpa. 

When all of that is going on the little things can really weigh on me as well. I am sure (I really hope) I am not the only one who can have something minor happen and it brings you to tears.

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A hot mess

Do you ever feel like your life is a hot mess? Disorganized? Out of routine?

Lately that’s how I feel. At home, at work, all aspects of my life.

I strive on routine. And my life has been anything but.

I am trying to embrace the disorganized, the fly by the day goings on, the unexpected, the disheveledness (is that a word?), the tiredness and exhaustion, the unplanned, the spontaneous (whether good or bad) …

I recently wrote about how I am really trying to listen to myself and what I need.

I am working on being kind to me in anyway I need it. And to not feel bad about whatever I choose.

This morning I had a dilemma as it was pouring outside. Should I stay in bed all warm and cozy and sleep away the morning? Or should I get up and head to yoga (which is just a short walk) to the studio in my neighborhood?

I knew I would have some guilt if I didn’t go to class. And I wasn’t sure if I would actually be able to go back to sleep. I decided to brave the rain (in my rain coat, Continue reading

Listening to me

What do I need?

What do you need?

I have been really trying to listen to myself lately.

Work has been extremely demanding and busy and overwhelming and stressful as we continue to go through transition. More than usual I feel tired, exhausted and wiped out.

I have really been trying to take the queues my body gives me whether physically, mentally, physiologically, emotionally.

Last weekend we had an Intensive Weekend at teacher training, which was absolutely amazing and I learned so much. But it also took a lot out of me.

I had a lot of things I wanted to do on Sunday. They were to attend Vickie’s morning yoga class; attend an optional hour discussion on meditation before our required three hours of teacher training; the three hours of class; and Sunday night Restorative yoga class.

I knew that was all too much for me and something had to give. I decided to skip Vickie’s class and did my own home practice. This also gave me my whole morning to lounge, enjoy my coffee and do a little homework.

I knew my body needed and would benefit more from a Restorative class than an asana class.

I took … Continue reading

Taking a break from the booze

Last year was a rough year. Last month was a rough month.

At some point in December I decided that eating and drinking whatever I wanted was fine and I would get back to clean living when I was emotionally ready. I usually like to set a deadline for myself, otherwise the unhealthy lifestyle can go on too long and find no end in sight.

And sometimes just knowing I have set a timeline for myself makes me feel OK in the moment of unhealthy living. There are times when we just want to or need to break away from the routine. But we must always get back to it.

I was pretty unhealthy in December. My yoga practice (home practice and public classes) was a little disturbed by the goings on but for the most part was pretty regular and I was happy to keep something routine and healthy going on in my life.

At work, there were many lunches and happy hours.

Even once we were on winter break I continued to drink more than I typically do. (I try to reserve alcohol intake to the weekends.)

I was definitely drinking too much in December. I didn’t do … Continue reading

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, everyone.

A new year is always exciting. A clean state. A new start. Or maybe just a continuation of things already forming and molding and becoming.

I have known for some time that January is going to be a challenging month for me. And I am trying to not freak out about it and go with the flow (which is not typical for me and may not last passed today).

Work will be a new adventure as our teams/staff are changing; yoga teacher training is ramping up with new projects and tasks along with the continuation of classes and an intensive weekend at the end of the month; a visit to Tucson mid-month to see family and a few friends.

Yea, it will be busy. But nothing I can’t handle. Right?

I have decided for at least the temporary to discontinue the Go Fit Girl! Monthly Challenges. I know many of you really like them. But there is little participation (at least with the posting on the blog and Facebook page), myself included, and they are rather time-consuming. And with school time increasing in 2014 I have to reevaluate and alter things in my life.

But there … Continue reading

The best gift is giving to others

You feel better at Christmas when you give.

~Sarah on Radio Alice (while talking about toy drive)

The above quote was said recently by a morning DJ when talking about the morning show’s plan to run a huge toy drive in the Bay Area.

For many of us this is a happy time of the year (and stressful) but in the end fairly happy.

But for so many others it’s not the happiest time of the year.

There are a variety of reasons why this time of the year is not the happiest time of the year.

If it is difficult to get food on the table every night and pay the rent or a mortgage the thought of having to give gifts, especially to children must be heart wrenching.

On both sides of mine and Curt’s families we no longer give gifts at Christmas. No one needs anything. And really, it is stressful to find that perfect gift during this crazy time of year. We reserve that perfect gift for our birthdays.

And really, isn’t he best gift, giving to others?

In our families we all give to various charities. I like to change … Continue reading

Taking an inward journey

On Saturday in my all-day teacher training class we focused on meditation.

I think meditation is an important part of yoga practice and frankly, life. But I don’t have a regular mediation practice on my own. I can barely get in my 30-minute home yoga practice five times a week.

Mary, who taught class on Saturday, told us that meditation is an inward dark journey. A regular meditation practice is about showing inner kindness to ourselves. It gives us an opportunity to listen to what our body needs and wants.

One of our assignments was to pair up with a  classmate and schedule 10 days where we meditate on the same day. On Day 5 we check in. And after Day 10 we answer a few questions.

If I remember correctly we are asked to meditate 20-30 minutes each day. My eyes nearly fell out of my head. I was like, how am I gonna fit that in, too???

My buddy and I scheduled a time when I will be on my work winter break. But part of that time I will also be out of town. So that will be a challenge to get my meditation in and my … Continue reading

Keeping the calm this December

Almost every December I sign myself up for too much and get completely overwhelmed.

I have decided to cut back on a few things this year.

Between a crazy time at work and school and the usual December craziness I had to make some decisions for me.

I love sending out holiday cards. So that is still happening. (In fact, I got most of them labeled, stamped and stuffed over Thanksgiving weekend.)

We pretty much stopped doing Christmas gifts a few years ago. (We do charity gifts instead.) But I like to send cards to the kids in our lives and let them know what charity we chose. I decided for my own sanity to not do cards this year.

I usually make some sort of tiny gift to include with cards to family and co-workers. Like last year’s knitted Santa hat (pictured to the left). Nope, not doing anything like that this year either.

My good friend Monica has a cocktail competition party every year around Christmastime. I will brag and tell you all that I won in 2010 and tied in 2011. Damn that Alexi and her 2012 win! 🙂

This year I decided not to participate. Not … Continue reading

Keeping balanced with Restorative

One of my favorite yoga teachers, Vickie, is teaching a Fall Restorative Series. It was for three Sundays. One in September, one in October and the third one was today.

After today’s workshop I felt calm and relaxed. I’m ready for this week and the holiday season.

October’s Sunday workshop was called Not for Women Only: A sequence for balancing hormones. Appropriate for all life stages (PMS, peri-menopause, menopause and even if you’re a guy). Only one brave guy attended the workshop with about 30 women.

My friend Monica has been attending the Restorative series with me. I am happy to share this with her as she is a new yogini.

Before the actual (hormone) asana Restorative practice began Vickie gave us a little background on hormones.

If we have unbalanced hormones that means our nervous system is also unbalanced.

Our adrenals feed the fight or flight. The  adrenals activate the nervous system, which is programmed to keep us safe. (Think back to the days when cavewomen and men were running from lions.) When we are under acute stress our body protects us (aka adrenaline).

The sympathetic nervous system secretes cortisol, which is a stress hormone.

When we … Continue reading

Yoga pose: Child’s Pose

Earlier this week I wrote about dealing with grief and yoga.

One of the poses (Child’s Pose) is part of the mini practice I found and shared on Monday as well.

A few of my co-workers and I did a mini yoga practice yesterday. My friend Maria lead a short little meditative relaxing practice. And I lead the group through breathing; kneeling; Child’s Pose; Cow Pose; Downward Facing Dog; Cow Pose; Child Pose; back to kneeling.

There are so many amazing benefits with Child’s Pose as with all yoga poses.

The Yoga Journal website lists the benefits of this pose.

The anatomical focus according to the site is thighs. But I think it is also a gentle hip opener.

Therapeutic application: stress; overall benefits: Gently stretches the hips, thighs, and ankles and calms the brain and helps relieve stress and fatigue and relieves back and neck pain when done with head and torso supported.

This is a great beginner’s tip: We usually don’t breathe consciously and fully into the back of the torso. Balasana provides us with an excellent opportunity to do just that. Imagine that each inhalation is “doming” the back torso toward the ceiling, lengthening and widening the … Continue reading